February 2009
Now that I see it this way, I’m alot happier, and I’ll be 100 % honest, I’ll try my best not to offend anyone or make anyone look bad, because I’m the bad guy here, kay ?
Varsity. I love it. I need it. Sometimes, I feel like it’s the only place I fit, but often, I feel like I don’t fit, with Marlo and Payton’s telepathy, and I’m 4 years...
“I love you and I want everyone else to love you too.”
– Andra Maria Zlatescu (that’s right, I can spell your crazy last name)
Why ?
Why am I doing this ? Why can’t I appreciate what I have and how they accept me ? Why can’t I accept the good things a push through the bad ? Will you hold me accountable ? I need to pray. I realized that telling Esther that I couldn’t talk on prayer was the right thing to do, because I am no where with my prayers, I force myself to talk to God, and guess...
This is a sin I'll confess to everyone.
I consider this a sin, because God says to be thankful, and I’m disobeying.
I feel so out of place, like I’m stuck in the middle of something I shouldn’t be, and I want desperately to be loved more than anyone else by someone, and then I remember that I have a best friend. Yes, honey, I’m sorry to admit that I’ve been feeling so left out around other people, that...
January 2009
“I rarely end up where I was intending to go, but often I end up somewhere I...”
– Douglas Adams (via toseekandfind) (via kari-shma) (via sientalo)
I hate this...
I don’t know him, but that guy who broke your heart is such an ass (no, I do not consider that a swear) I would like to kill him. You are such a happy person, and it sucks when you’re not happy and doing your little monkey laugh “ooohhh hooohhh !” and I want you to be happy, so happy healing. Guys are stupid.
“The possibilities are limitless.”
I loved it at first, but this is getting annoying.
“I think I’m moving but I don’t know where…”
– OneRepublic
Saturday.
I really am looking forward to tomorrow, I love singing and playing guitar and shouting out to God. If you can come, I think you should, I’d love for you to be there. We are going to play:
- Hallelujah (your love is amazing)
-Sweetly Broken
-Holy is the Lord
-Oh, how I Love you
-Without You
-Sweet, Sweet Song
-It’s all You
“Breathe on me now, as I bow down, I’m desperate, Lord, for more of you....”
– Kathryn Scott.
maryrachelle:
It’s Naptime - Mary Rachelle...
“Don’t you get it? Everyone feels like a fake. Everyone feels like they’ve gotten...”
– (via littlemiss) (via kari-shma) (via sientalo)
Reno's...
I did some Reno’s, I hope you like them. By some, I mean “completely changed the theme and colors” Reno’s…
I need you, do you need me ?
Ouch, my nose hurts… how odd, owwwwww.
You are a cool person, I admire you.
Honestly, you are really cool ! First I thought you were a little odd because you were humming while chewing at me (Um, what ?) when I first met you in castle mountain, but then I learned how totally cool you are. At the famine, I was just sitting there playing my guitar, and somehow I ended up downstairs with you rocking out together, and now here I am, getting ready for my third time...
chittybang:
kirstenes:
Dan is coming for dinner and then we’ll practice for Saturday.
I’m totally coming! I can’t wait to hear you!
OH YAY ! I’D LOVE IT IF YOU CAME ! I love how supportive you, and all of my friends are !
Haha, you’re a part of the surprise now, I’m so excited. Unfortunately I have to wait for like a whole 6 days, but I’ll have good times before then anyway.
Dan is coming for dinner and then we’ll practice for Saturday.
I love you.
MMH, MRT, PJH, MNF, MGM, KJJ, K?D, K?B (Holy cow, we have the same initials…) AJB.
&
maryrachelle:
Stop worrying about change . People will change . As will you . If you lose friends , or drift from people who may have meant a lot to you in the past , don’t worry . There will always be constant friends , there will always be people who love you . There will always be people who change , but at the end of the day , their hearts will remain the same . Nothing lasts , but...
I’m putting together a video that’s pretty ! Its got a bunch of cheesy thankyous and some pictures of me playing my guitar and such. It kinda seems a little egotistical, but oh well… Unfortunately some of my songs didn’t turn out so well because I was going way too fast or forgot the words…
“My tears are words upon my paper
They let my soul pour out
Inspiration comes...”
– M. Nimmy Fernando, who by the way, should join me on Saturday and stay until Sunday, I checked with my mummy, and she says thats fine.
Video of my Songs ? Yay or Nay ?
Yay. It’s actually one video for each song, of which there are… I think 5. I simply chose my favorites. Look for them on facebook, I’d put them up here, but I’m too lazy to figure out how…
You made me think.
As I said in previous entries, you made me think, so here is a little something I plan to eventually put into a song:
When all is lost,
But you are found,
Will I rejoice,
And make joyful sound,
Even if you’re all that’s left,
that’s more than all I need.
Okay, so some people are going to think that this is wierd, but I totally don’t care. Thankyou for kissing my shoe. Believe it or not, I’ve been having some trouble with the shoes. I personally feel a little odd in guys shoes, and I know a lot of people do it, and they’re kinda hot, but I was also trying not to be materialistic, but I like them, and I think that’s okay, so...
Youth Next Week.
For those of you who aren’t super kids who know everything about VBC, I have a surprise for you ! I hope you like it ! I hope you’ll recognize it…. I’m pretty excited…
I will dance, I will sing to be mad for my king,...
I love dancing, and yes Kylie, I know you’d noticed, but perhaps you don’t get it. I don’t dance, I don’t jump, except at youth. I’m dancing and clapping (out of time) because God has made me happy, nothing is hindering this passion in my soul.
Thankyou.
Thankyou darling for making me think, because I didn’t just think about whether or not I am materialistic, I started to think about my relationships, and I fixed a few issues, and I did all of this stuff, and it’s great. Also, seeing you so sick you were about to faint, almost made me cry, but then I was dancing and singing to be mad for my king, so I kinda got happy, but still, I...
Dear All of my Friends,
Don’t worry about letting me know of my flaws. I try to fix them, and appreciate an honest person. I’m cool with it, I know I fail at certain things. Don’t worry. Posting that blog was the right thing to do, even if it weren’t meant for me, it made me think. Now I’m going to go love PEOPLE and not things.
You blog alot. I went through 4 pages. You blog alot.
Now I’m thinking of how embarrassing it would be if that weren’t about me, and I was wrong. Oh well, I’m wrong a lot, it’d be a laugh !
I need to stop being so bitter and get on with...
chittybang:
Why do you get to be so awesome all the time? Why can’t I be at least sort of okay sometimes? Would that be a bit much for you? It’s okay, I understand. You’re used to everything being good, and about you. And anyone can see that you lead a fantastic life. Everything about it (and you) is perfect. (But secretly, I think that if you didn’t have half of the things you do, you wouldn’t...
“Too bad we’re both chickens and never get to see eachother…”
– KJJ.
You make me happy.
Video of my songs ?
Yay: 1
Nay: 0
This is how a convo with Maria goes...
Ria says (2.43 PM):
Hello doll! (L)
[KirstenEs] says (2.43 PM):
hello ken
Ria says (2.43 PM):
noooooo
id obviously b barbie
[KirstenEs] says (2.43 PM):
hahaha
Ria says (2.43 PM):
ur ken
[KirstenEs] says (2.44 PM):
oh, thanks
Ria says (2.44 PM):
anytime^^
[KirstenEs] says (2.44 PM):
can i be the pink barbie mobile ?
Ria says (2.44 PM):
OMG that thing is HOT
[KirstenEs] says (2.44 PM):
or the little annoying yappy dog
Ria says (2.44 PM):
??
ur the barbie car
(L)
[KirstenEs] says (2.44 PM):
oh
okay
as long as i'm not ken
Ria says (2.44 PM):
Awww thats ok u can b both
[KirstenEs] says (2.44 PM):
wow, thanks...
I’m thinking of making a video of the songs I wrote, and maybe putting it on Facebook… Yay or Nay ? Would that be an arrogant thing to do ? Please let me know what you think.
Sweet Song.
This is my new song:
This world is broken,
But he is perfection,
My heart is stained,
Still he remains,
Perfect, perfect….
And his sweet, sweet song, calls gently to me,
And his love pours out, gently setting me free,
And his sweet, sweet touch brings me down to my knees,
He gave everything,
Can do anything,
With his sweet song
He has come down,
To show the way,
In the calm I’m found,
The...
“This broken heart has a good side.”
Can you hear the wind ?
Nimaya and I got of the bus today, and nearly fell over, the wind was so strong. We huddled in a little shelter thingy which did almost nothing to help until we got a ride. Then once I came home, and it was still, and the wind outside was roaring, but I was protected. Then I felt peace. The peace of being away from the storm. I love the sound of rain, of wind, of thunder. I love to sit inside,...
You probably don’t care, because this is totally random, but I got new shoes. It makes me rather happy. Hot shoes and hot boots. I have hot footwear. Oh well, it can’t make me any prettier, but my feet, my feet are happy.