Out of Deep Waters

Almost daily I find myself freaked about physics, wondering if it’s really something that I’m good at, and whether it’s what I should be pursuing. For a brief moment, the idea of doing anything other than physics is ghastly. But then I remember that there was a time when I wanted to grow up to be barbie. Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad if it turned out that that wasn’t God’s plan for me. At the moment, I do like Physics, and it is something I’m going to invest in. But I think I’d rather let the Lord nudge me in the direction of whatever he has for me, instead of holding on to my plans so tightly that my knuckles go white. And, sometimes, the thought of “God’s ways” seems so… blaahhh. But my reasoning, now, is that, actually, the ways of the Lord lead to satisfaction. If I’m not meant to study Engineering, it’s because God has something else for me—something which will I will find satisfaction in.